Toni S t o n e
401 Buck Hollow Rd
Fairfax, VT 05454
Aug. 7, 2008
Keep moving
i promised to keep moving ahead past doubts…
not to be stopped by doubts.. and where i selected to do it was,
with the studio building where the greenhouse used to be
and where i started was putting a new portico on the front door…
then onto the final set of plans for the new room with Tom.
the lawyer, although he found the previous owner who needs
to supply some paper work, still hasn’t gotten the paperwork
from Tennessee to Vermont. the equity loan, therefore, was still
held up but two turns of affairs brought us promises of financial
help that will make it all possible, whether we get the equity loan
in time or not. i am kind of glad. i didn’t really want to add
more debt to our mortgage. s o we are tooting along anyway
and even adding a side door ramp to the studio
a s well as a wood stove.
the place where i was hiding the truth, turned into a huge
conversation with a relative, that worked out when i just asked
for what i wanted, instead of hoping for it. it’s still possible
to be an ass even when you know truth.. there’s always a place
where it’s not practiced. we need reminders constantly.
the way i am now is making myself wrong about everything..
seeing the worst in everything, wanting to complain about
everything.. but i keep on catching myself
and laughing at how i am…
I am grateful to remember this is the most negative three weeks
of the year, according to Kabbalistic teachings.
it will be over on august 10.
i will be tremendously grateful.
