Toni Stone
401 Buck Hollow Rd.
Fairfax, VT 05454
nov. 20, 2003
learning lately
what i have
been learning lately is that
no matter what seems to be the case ..it’s not that.
i am seeing that all i really have to do is keep moving,
keep talking, keep thinking and nothing needs to be a problem
for very long at al.
ti almost doesn’t seem like there is much personal left in my life.
there is always a swarm, a flow, and quick dance steps into what’s next. i remember when i used to have a life,
i suffered a lot supremely and regularly.
i worried…
i thought things through.
i decided.
i reminisced.
i ran over scenes in my mind.
icalculated, planned and reviewed things
but today there is no such action.
only moving forward,
steady always onto what’s next with not time to be self concerned…
not for more than one to two minutes anyway.
i still find ways to squeeze out a little selfconcern,
but it’ snot like it used to be.
just as i get a spare moment and start to sink down into a little
comfortable despair, self incrimination, or depression,
the phone will ring and it’s Audrey calling for intention time.
i have to stop emoting and start intending for all the people on earth
when i don’t really know them. i have to do affirmations for all our students, clients and
colleagues and their families..
most of whom i never met…
then i have to say what i am grateful and satisfied about…. since i do this every 6 hours
at ten and four and ten and four,
it’s really ruined the life i used to have
and iam grateful.
there’s really no valley one can descend into
in the six hour format without hearing the bell to come out at the sixth hour.
come out and see reality…
say what will help others live up their ducks too. praying and intending for others.
resisting is the fundamental operating mechanism… which causes suffering.
