Toni Stone may 30, 2009
401 Buck Hollow Road
Fairfax, VT 05454
to do it anyway. . .
i notice that a skill, to simply show up and do what i said, is very valuable. . .
sometimes, what i said i would do is not really what i want to do,
when time comes. . .
i notice, “I DON’T WANT TO DO X”
then i tell myself, “I GET YOU DON’T WANT TO DO X
AND YOU HAVE THE POWER TO DO X ANYWAY.”
then i say, “YES I DO. I HAVE THE POWER TO DO WHAT I SAID, AND I WILL.”
mostly when “i don’t want to” occurs, its when i don’t know how to do it so that
i am sure it will work out the way i want it to work out.
in other words, i want to have it happen a certain way.
instead, when i show up not knowing how it will work out, intending unknowingly that it will work out,
i enter the realm of risk. his is an area where many good things are sourced from. . .
when i can allow it.it happens with writing. i don’t know what i will write. . .
then i pick up a pen and write any way.
whatever shows up comes out.
i don’t always like what comes out.
sometimes it seems stupid. so what?
it’s okay to seem stupid sometimes. its real.
i keep exercising the skill to show up no matter what
and deal with what gets caused. . .
there is always a chance for wisdom to occur.