September 23, 2008
Birthday Upset?
On days like this, I wake up into confusion…
thinking of some dream. wondering why some
body part feels like it does. thinking I could stand to have more sleep.
wishing there wasn’t such a stacked up schedule for the morning and not wanting to talk to anyone.
Never mind that I think no one loves me,. I review all the calls I didn’t make…
what I forgot to do and how it will be near impossible to catch up.
Then I turn on the computer and see piles of new unanswered mail.
I get on the phone and pick up more voice mail messages.
I am glad I know that right before a birthday this is what life is like.
It’s called “Oh no, do I have to go out there again?”
The answer is, “Yes” and I just requested a strong cup of coffee. It’s birthday upset and if one is awake enough,
it should get less able to diminish as the years go bye.
You can simply say, “Oh look at that. It’s birthday upset trying to tell..that life is deplorable,
that everything is too much trouble
that it would be better somewhere else.
Well I can say “Thank you for sharing” and get thinking to another avenue…
I know it’s the opponent, not really me talking authentically to me.
For this I am grateful… even though, someone
who used to like me just called and said,
“it’s predicted to rain on your birthday Quilt show.”
I said, “We will have the Quilt show rain or shine on Sept. 28 and it will be the best so far.”
